Why are we constantly living the same experiences over and over? Have you ever caught yourself feeling like your life is on a loop? Same pattern repeating itself and nothing new ever happening?
I remember this very well especially during the seasons, in the spring it would be the spring cleaning, yard clean up, planting of flowers or veggies. I would sit in my dinning room and look outside and see the exact movement of my neighbours that I had witnessed the previous years. It got to the point that I could actually predict there very next move. As if we were all living a script. Sounds to eerily similar to the Truman movie. But summer would roll around same script, everyone cutting the lawns at the same time. The very cold and emotional less chit chat on the street. Fall and winter would roll by and again nothing new would ever happen. It felt so robotic, living in the twilight zone, I thought I was going mad seeing this and having a problem with it. You see when we are most uncomfortable, that is when we change.
This all got me thinking that something was off, it almost seemed as if everyone was zombie like and I was going crazy watching them and myself. How could I let years of patterns be running my life.
Mind you I would try and shake it up and do new things, I would fight with myself stating “no today you leave everything and do something new!” It now seems crazy as I was always the one in control and always had the choice to change it by changing my inner thoughts and beliefs. The key here is that we always hold the power, we are the creators of our life and now I understand the statement of change starts with us.
The fact that we have lead most of our lives blind is disturbing, the fact that none of this was taught to us and still isn’t is alarming. We all have endless possibilities of making our reality and living our best life and with that comes more alignment, more happiness and less control in this world.
So how did I do it, I started by small changes, I focused on something new, imagining it for myself. I changed my routine, leaving purposely at times that I would never have gone out. I started to participate less in the social aspect and live more intentionally with what I wanted. I saw at the time that change was coming, new beginnings and better fulfilling life.
I stopped hanging out with people that brought me down or that all they ever did was complain. I left the systems, all of them. I dropped the educational system and started homeschooling my children. I left the medical system, and radically changed how I approached my own health and my family's health — choosing more conscious and natural ways of living that worked for us. I actually ended up leaving the house we had called home for 11 years to move to an 11 acre raw untouched piece of land. Here is where the real Return happened, having burnt everything down and starting over without knowing what to do was the biggest test I was ever put through.
So as you can see, the biggest step needed is one of courage, strength and willingness to let go all that doesn’t serve you and start over. No matter the age or the circumstances, our beliefs create our reality so why not believe things out of the norm and live the most fulfilling life ever?