The persistent self doubt, keeps flooding your mind over and over again, making you question your every intention. Almost like it is testing you and your new beliefs. It is so easy to fall back into old patterns and stay in what is familiar. Is that considered self sabotage? Or is it the embedded program grasping to stay intact?
Many have said that it is the Universe testing how badly you want the new belief system. I am not sold on that, I believe it is all about focus and really standing firm on the new life you are programming. Of course our mind will put up a fight as this is a safety feature we all carry, our nervous systems wants to keep us safe and comfortable, it has no clue if you are setting good or bad intentions, it will always return to default settings.
Quite frustrating in my opinion. The thing though that I see is this, we are fractal beings of the Divine Creator, meaning we all have the same capabilities. We are creators and whatever it is we choose to focus on will happen. That being said, shouldn’t we with our capabilities just be able to command something and that is it? Where we lead out so far away from ourselves that we no longer trust the power we actually have? Again the self doubt creeps backup, are we not able to attain instant manifestation due to the fact the doubt, fear is instilled in us?
What in the world is holding us back? One simple answer, is US we hold ourselves back, nothing else no external blames. We have never seen the true power that we carry.
It’s funny when I started on this journey of remembering, that all these years my attention was always placed outside of myself, I was never taught to look in and to full understand who I was. Who I am. Who we all are. We are remarkable, flawless spiritual beings living in a human experience. We are meant to have fun, set goals, create and most importantly live in love.
For me one of my biggest obstacles in intentionally creating my life was that I would let the daily tasks of life get in my head, I was always saying; “ tomorrow I will start” then tomorrow would arrive and something else would show up or the motivation wasn’t there. I would talk myself into saying that it was ok and that there is tomorrow. Well five years later and still saying the same thing is a new program that I was living. Damn, another program set unintentionally!
To fully immerse in this act of creation requires discipline, just like when you are working, you take on that responsibility and commitment in going to work. The same things needs to be done for creating the life you have always wanted.
This is not to be done in a “have to do” energy but as a “ I finally remember who I am” energy.
Countless teachings, thousands of podcasts, so many failed attempts in finding that spiritual guru selling the next concept. All the while the true power is inside of us waiting to be seen.
I can’t tell you how many people I have listened to in the spiritual community that sounded good in the beginning only to turn into another one that had no clue what was going on. I found that things were getting over complicated. Too many excuses too many steps. I questioned it all, we are so powerful why is it that complicated? I stopped searching for answers out there, I knew I was just as intelligent and knowledgeable as them only I didn’t have an audience at the time.
My true discovery is that all the power lies within myself and that only I have the ability to fuel it or ignore it. When we own our actions with no excuses and get into a healthy loving relationship with ourselves can we fully return to our own power and begin creating the life we were always meant to live.
You want something you simple focus and live in that frequency of being that person. I know many are starting the excuse spiel reading what I just said but why doubt?